Ok- so I know I haven't written for 3 days- but this time, it does not mean that I haven't been in worship. It does mean that my time in worship has been 'transformational', let's say! And that sometimes takes a while to process. I'll share about that part soon.
Today my worship was 'urgent'. This morn, Ren's mom was taken to the hospital for chest pains- we were told she would be life-flighted to an Amarillo hospital. That's really all we knew for a while. Our imaginations were left to do what they tend to do. I fell to my knees by my sofa and cried out to our God,
the Great Physician, who alone knew what was really going on in her body.
the Healer, who had the power to heal in an of Himself,
but also to guide those caring for her to see and diagnose and provide healing options for her.
the Provider, who knows not only what she needs, but also what Daddy Ray needs right now as he
watches this one he loves struggle.
the Comforter- who cares deeply for those emotional needs and comforts them in this journey.
the Strength- for Barb, & Ray, but also for Ren's brother, Devin and his wife Becki, who live close and
are the ones who carry much of the concerns like this up close. And also for Ren, who feels as if the miles have quadrupled between him and his parents in just a few minutes. And for the two grandsons and the two granddaughters who love this Grandy dearly.
I wish I could say that as I knelt there in worship the knot in my stomach went away. It didn't! I know FULL WELL that my prayers are not always answered as I would wish. But I also know FULL WELL that He is the Only One who knows all, sees all, heals all- and that's where I place my dear second mother! This woman who drew me right in long before I was dating her son. This woman who taught me in high school, and then in marriage and in life. I trust her to HIM! The Great I AM!
Who are you concerned about today? What do you learn of God in your worship that helps you to lift that person to Him? I challenge you to kneel before Him today!
(note: due to storms, Barb was driven by ambulance (2 1/2 hour drive) to Amarillo. Still no word on what is the cause.)
Life is full of moments that catch you by surprise and take your breath away or moments that sock you in the gut and knock the breath out of you. Learning to live in both is such a process! But if you take just a moment- in the middle of it all- to NOTICE what is really going on, you might find, be it ever so small, a small bit of GREEN! HOPE that is just beginning to show new life, a new normal. But good none-the-less! Here's to noticing!
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