You can imagine some of the emotions having just had 2 daughters get married within 9 weeks of each other; experiencing empty nest like never before; standing at a threshold of 'what's next' and really longing for clarity.
But in the mix of it all, I have come to understand something pretty significant.
For the last 7 or 8 years, I have lived much of my life AFRAID!
I don't think I thought I was afraid, though I knew there were times when I quite easily bordered on, if not plummeted, into panic. But I kept telling myself that I should cut myself some slack- there have been hard things that have happened, it will take time to get over it.
But...I'm getting ready to make a 'change'- a great change, but change none the less. (more on this to come!)
Did you know that CHANGE is one of the top 5 fears that people have? The others are:
Fear of failure,
Fear of unworthiness,
Fear of loss of identity,
& Fear of Success.
I had to admit within the last 7-8 years, I can point to a time when all of them have played a large roll. But I'm a person that works hard to process and analyze how things are effecting me. (I'm a LIFE COACH for pity sake!) Yet I was blown away by how so many of these messages are playing over and over in my mind & heart still. Messages that I have identified as lies and thought I had replaced with truth that I believed and could own.
Recently I was challenged to consider how the FEARS, and trauma, and painful life events have effected my physical being. I know it has impacted me emotionally, spiritually, mentally. But what about physical scars. My immediate answer was that it has shown up in my weight- pretty obvious for all to see. But...how else is it showing up. The fact that I have Addison's Disease (google it for more info) is one factor of physical scarring. My adrenal glands quite doing their job because of it. I think I have much to learn yet about other ways fear has affected me.
But I can attest to the fact, and think we can all agree, that we are designed so interconnected that our body, mind, heart and soul are all deeply impacted by things that happen in our life.