Last week it was grey and rainy- this week is absolutely beautiful!
Last week I felt like I was trying hard to take a step forward, this week I'm walking with purpose & ease.
Last week I was still grappling with the question, "Where is the HOPE?"
This week, I not only see hope- I feel it! What a difference that makes?
In pondering how I got to such a 'dark place' once again after seeing such light in my own story the past few months, several things came to mind.
One was that I used to LIVE in this dark place. It used to feel like it took everything in me to see a glimmer of hope or breath of life. I don't LIVE there anymore! I only visited for a time- partly because it still really hurts that Leisha is gone, that life is different than I dreamed it would be. To deny those aches and tears would be lying about how it is sometimes. But not always! It felt extra dark, I think, because I haven't been familiar with that place for a while. I was seeing it now in stark contrast to the life I had recently become aware of again. I found myself coming out of that place- that 'funk' with deep gratitude that I do see life, I do feel hope!
Another thing that impacted my thoughts last week was a chapel message Ren had shared with me from a professor at Dallas Seminary. The message was called "DEEPEST NEED, HIGHEST HOPE!" The irony of this message was that the text for it was from John 11. The Lord has used this same story of Lazarus' death and resurrection to make me think about what it looks like to 'be dead' and then feel life again. I felt as though I had been the one resurrected. This passage reminded me that I feel LIFE again. That was the first week of June. It was so powerful that I shared it in a the message at our church the last weekend of June.
(I thought I had written about it in my blog, but I looked back and realized that I had not. If you'd like to listen to that message go to my website (www.greenhopecoaching.com) and look for it under the speaking tab. Or you can go to http://www.limacrossroads.org/summer-breeze-june-26-2011.)
Anyway, back to "DEEPEST NEED, HIGHEST HOPE!" (by the way, if you want to listen to it, go to http://www.dts.edu/media/play/deepest-need-highest-hope-jones-barry-d/ ).
Dr Jones reminds us that our deepest need and highest hope is all tied up in the words of John 11:35, "Jesus wept!" I want to include some of my notes here- 1. so I'll remember. 2. so maybe they will encourage you!
There is so much more that he shared that is worth considering. The key thing to notice is that our deepest need is directly connected with our highest hope!
Take a moment to read from the beginning of the chapter. But in answer to my question, "where is the hope?", I want to pick it up in verse 33.
When Jesus saw her (Mary) weeping, and the Jews who had come along with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in spirit and troubled.
who has tear ducts,
who will take our sin, our brokenness and take it to the cross.